Beth Wankiewicz
1000 days since Clay
24,000 hours. 1,440,000 minutes. I don’t even want to google the seconds. I can’t say how many of those early days felt like 1000 days...
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Carrying Clay
Welcome to my Carrying Clay blog posts, below you will find all Life After Clay blogs where I write about all aspects of life after baby loss.
Beth Wankiewicz
- Oct 14, 2021
- 12 min
Our son, his story.
This is a blog that I knew I wanted to write for a while, I have had so many thoughts and feelings in my head that I knew I needed to get...
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Beth Wankiewicz
- Aug 15, 2021
- 10 min
Trying to conceive after loss - Where the F@$k is our rainbow?!
Trying to conceive (TTC) after loss is a whole new ballgame. I think its only right that I back track this slightly to July 2019 when I...
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Beth Wankiewicz
- Jul 21, 2021
- 5 min
12 things I’ve learnt in the 12 months since Clay
1- Not everything happens for a reason, sometimes really fucking shit things happen for no reason at all. I go more in depth in about...
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Beth Wankiewicz
- Jun 16, 2021
- 5 min
The universe is a dick
After Clay died I searched high and low for a reason, for some sort of ‘purpose’ that I falsely thought I had to find. See, throughout...
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Beth Wankiewicz
- Mar 4, 2021
- 6 min
So, what happens next?
It’s a question that’s been whirling around my head for the past 6 weeks or so, I know we are still early in our grief journey but I look...
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Beth Wankiewicz
- Jan 15, 2021
- 4 min
And then…half a year had passed.
As I’m sat here stroking Clay’s footprint pendent on my necklace, staring out of the window on a dreary January afternoon, Clay should be...
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Beth Wankiewicz
- Jan 3, 2021
- 8 min
Miscarriage after neonatal death
This isn’t the blog I ever thought I would be writing, I was planning on writing a ‘first trimester pregnancy after loss’ blog over the...
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Beth Wankiewicz
- Dec 17, 2020
- 4 min
Christmas without Clay
When Clay died I always knew Christmas was going to be one of the tougher ‘firsts’ we faced, however December has been a lot tougher than...
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Beth Wankiewicz
- Oct 25, 2020
- 4 min
I want Clay, but I need another baby.
I want to start this blog with a little caveat that I wish I didn’t have to write, having another baby will never ever replace Clay, nor...
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Beth Wankiewicz
- Sep 28, 2020
- 3 min
Why is it so quiet?
In the months leading up to Clay being born, like I’m sure many people do, I lost count of the amount of times I said to Dan ‘ooo let's...
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Beth Wankiewicz
- Sep 28, 2020
- 2 min
I'm not scared of dying...
Ok, hear me out on this one. I am very fortunate that during the past few months after losing Clay, apart from a few short fleeting...
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Beth Wankiewicz
- Sep 28, 2020
- 5 min
The First Fortnight
First of all, Hi, I’m Beth and Clay is our first child. Myself and my husband Dan are happily married and live with our Australian...
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